By Molly Marko
Someone is going to break into my car when I’m in a store.
I can’t stop thinking that thought. Today I was trying on clothes at Goodwill, already paranoid about leaving my MacBook in my burgundy Toyota Avalon, when I heard a faint car alarm from the parking lot go off. In disbelief, I stared at the dressing room mirror and speed-walked to the sliding doors, trying my best to not look like there was an emergency (even though someone might want to call 911, just to get a head start on the burglars).
My Toyota was exactly as I left it 20 minutes ago. No windows cracked. The doors weren’t bent. Nothing broken. I sat in the driver’s seat. It worked.
At the coffee shop, I was grateful I’d be bringing all the important stuff out of the car and into the café with me. But because the sun had been tanning my laptop in the passenger seat, it felt like lava when I grabbed it. I was freaking out about it over-heating. In the panic of loading my laptop into my backpack, I yanked out my massive 4tb hard drive. And if you know anything about hard drives, this is not a good move to make. The programs inside will shut down unexpectedly and the spinning parts in the drive, which held all of my work for the past year, would have to skid to a stop. My life was in flames.
I worry a lot about what others will do to me. What will they take? What will they break? Truth is, sometimes it’s not the world I have to worry about, but me: my own worst enemy.
My hard drive ended up being fine and I didn’t lose any data, but it did make me discover that I am a danger to myself.
Keep your friends close and enemies closer they say. But what if you don’t know if you’re the friend or foe?
You treat yourself to pancakes for breakfast, yet tell yourself you should workout this afternoon.
You have a passion for photography, but never post because it’s not up to par.
You go to a café alone, but can’t concentrate because you think everyone else things you look lonely.
You start and never finish.
You believe and doubt.
You love and hate yourself.
My worst thoughts come with my self-image. And the funny part is, is they look like my friend. “You’ll be prettier if you workout more.” “Good job! You ate less today than yesterday.” “Boys might like you better if your hair is like that.”
You are robbing yourself.
Except before YOU start dialing 911 to turn yourself in, I want to remind you that it’s not all your fault.
The devil didn’t die. Not yet, anyways.
“Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up” 1 Peter 5:8
He plays the pretty part in trying and tempting us into taking away our own peace. But we have power over that.
“We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ.” 2 Corinthians 10:5 NLT
The two most important words I want you to remember from this verse are capture and Christ.
Capture is used as a verb in this verse. Look at the definition of the word capture:
“to take into one’s possession or control by force.”
To capture something is not necessarily easy. An example sentence was, “The police captured the burglar.” Another was “The Russians captured 13,000 men.”
Capturing burglars and 13,000 men is no easy task (though I was pretty determined I could when I marched directly towards the parking lot of Goodwill), but harder still is capturing your thoughts. I believe Paul used the word capture knowing it was going to use 13,000 men’s strength to capture just one man’s thoughts.
Because if we don’t choose to take control over our thoughts, they will quickly take control over us.
And then there’s Christ. Our best friend.
If our thoughts are not friendly with Christ, they are not worth keeping around like that. Paul says to “teach them to obey Christ.”
So then this is something we have to learn. Study. Test. Repeat. Like reckless kids in school, our rebellious thoughts need extra attention. Sometimes detention.
With Christ as the principal we aren’t left wondering which of our thoughts have truth to them. If they don’t align with what he says or who he is, they are lies. Look at these truths! They probably sound pretty different than yours.
You are special. (Galatians 1:5)
You have a purpose here. (Exodus 9:16)
You are gifted. (1 Peter 4:10-11)
You don’t need to worry. (Matthew 6:25)
I love you. (Jeremiah 31:3)
Teaching my thoughts wears me out. Sometimes I get so tired, I just let them takeover.
But it is worth the fight.
Remember the definition of capture—you might have to control it by force. Forcing yourself to read just one verse. Forcing yourself to talk with someone. Forcing yourself to pray in the car on the way home. Forcing yourself to write down the thoughts. Forcing yourself to just sit in silence with them and figure them out.
Forcing something isn’t fun, but neither is fear.
I still worry about people breaking into my car, to be honest. The Goodwill parking lot is an unpredictable place. But I always make sure I park in the front and cover anything valuable.
Please be that careful with your mind. I don’t want you to get robbed because you left your doors unlocked.
You are not the enemy. You are the friend.
And Christ is how you know it’s true.
ABOUT MOLLY MARKO
Molly Marko is a mess most of the time.
Molly is a part-time photographer, sometimes vlogger, insecure Instagramer, random writer, disorganized host of The Laundry Chat podcast, and a one hundred percent engram four with a three wing. At 22 years old, she still struggles with self-image, and unsuccessfully tries to stay sane by sipping on too much coffee. Small town Wisconsin was where Molly learned to love Jesus at the age of six and has been trying to look like him ever since. Still uncertain about what God is calling her to do with her life, Molly is currently learning to listen while simultaneously trying to clean up a little.
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